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Month: September 2024

Last night

Published on September 27, 2024

Got some pretty shitty dreams last night. It seems like no matter how hard I try to get past some things in my life, they find their way back.

Do they try to tell me something? Is there anything from that past that I need to use now? Are there any red flags around me that I am either underestimating or didin’t notice? Either way, the real punishments of the conscience catches up with us. I can’t die, not yet.

I still have things to do and people who need me. Maybe I need to realise that I need myself, or maybe I need a break from life. I don’t know what good that will do to me-having free time off work just make things worse.

For now, I’ll just consume my sorrow in some italian bought biscuits with pistachio cream on top of them and contemplating if I should download the Mana games just added to gamepass or skip them entirely.

Decisions, decisions.

Trip to Milan

Published on September 15, 2024

And I’ve finally done it, a holiday abroad, which was long overdue anyway. My task was to find a holiday in Italy and, in the end, Milan was the choice.

Gotta say, while their attractions are a bit overhyped, the city’s vibe is perfect. Best dressed women (and men) I had ever seen, best food I had ever ate.

I also visited one place that hopefully will change my life a bit: the armani museum. Seeing those well dressed pictures and plastic models reminded me about how I liked to carry my person before I left myself go back to obscurity.

Although nothing spectacular came out of it and I’ve spent loads of money, it was nice to live a little and remind myself of the beautiful world that is out there, a world that doesn’t wait for me or anyone to enjoy it.

I guess that now, my next task is to look after myself and work towards some goals, other goals than surviving.