I’m just thinking about nothing, I guess. After finishing Star Wars Survivor, I went back at one of my old comfort games: Freedom Fighters.
Originally released in 2002, the game did carried me through some very bad years (alongside NFS Carbon and Fifa 2009/2008).
Mentally, I had closed the door to some stuff but the heart has a mind of its own.
At the end of the day, everyone wants to be more than he/she is, but knowing I wasn’t enough and that I did the wrong thing follows me, still.
Maybe the reason I returned to Freedom Fighters this beginning of the year is because I needed to remind myself that no matter how hard it used to be, I survived.
I still remember how broken I was in the late 2000’s. I thought I’d never achieve anything, that I’ll always be who I was and other bad things which almost made me go to the wrong side.
But I came back and I faced it all the way I knew best, and even through I could’ve done better, I done enough to get through it all.
I simply wish to not become bitter about some things. Not against myself, not against others. If I achieve this, I would mark it as a success.
This too shall pass.